ode to my big sister

Today, I dug up some old home videos. I found myself curled up on the couch watching myself as a 6 month old baby, playing in the bathtub with my big sister, Taylor.

In the video, my mom and dad were both crammed into the bathroom in our little apartment in Newfoundland, Canada, trying their best to get us to perform, laugh, and talk for the camera. Taylor, at 25 months, showed off her knowledge of colors and said hi to all the family members that my parents listed. However, she eventually became stubbornly distracted with the bath toys. Me, at 6 months, just sat and watched her pour water back and forth from one bowl to another. I was mesmerized.

"Taylor, your little sister is watching every move you make" comes my dad's voice from behind the camera.

As I watched, I smiled to myself---I did then, and I have ever since.

I don't think Taylor would label herself a "leader." She has her own quiet, resolute way of doing things, but somehow because of this, she is a leader. I watched her embrace individuality when we were young girls, make good decisions as teenagers, marry well and love with purpose, and put a little, tiny somebody above herself.....and I have decided I want to be just like her.

Taylor, thank you for leading a life worthy to be followed. Thank you for investing where it matters, and for being the kind of woman that I strive to become. Thank you for showing this younger sister just what to do. I love you, and remember --- I watch every move you make.